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Wednesday, May 31, 2006
on the way home i saw 2 cats mating.. -_- i was like.. get a room.. or tree or sumthing.. anyway wonder wat wlda happened if i went over to disturb them.. lol Monday, May 29, 2006
was late for econs todae.. hah.. but turned out that it seemed like being absent wasnt much of a problem anyway.. so later went kbox.. Saturday, May 27, 2006
my life's in a mess.. im very confused.. many tots in my mind.. so much that they seem to mix into one another n blurs whenever i try to think of any of them.. i nid time..
Friday, May 26, 2006
im still much afraid of things.. i tot i was fearless.. guess im not.. -_-
gp's over.. this time the paper was difficult.. to me.. hah.. Thursday, May 25, 2006
tmr's gp mid year.. dun wanna comment about it.. Wednesday, May 24, 2006
wednesdae the best 1.30 dismiss.. used to b 12.30 but its still gd.. Tuesday, May 23, 2006
played soccer todae.. i sucked.. sorry.. Monday, May 22, 2006
bought a soccer ball for myself todae.. costed $10.. quite ok ball la.. so anyway on my bus journey home i started regreting buying it.. lol.. Sunday, May 21, 2006
nothing much to blog about..
yea finally remembered wat i wanted to blog about.. Saturday, May 20, 2006
forgot wat to blog about again.. lol.. Friday, May 19, 2006
oh n i wanted to take note that the time written here is 15hrs earlier than the time i realli wrote..
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ok i had something i wanted to blog about but i totally cant remember it now.. shld write them down in future.. Thursday, May 18, 2006
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ok another post for todae.. its realli about yesterdae.. -.-
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thursdae is a LONG dae.. wif evry subject there is to take except for PE.. = ( at least another todae is over.. phew.. wanted to grab a bite at BK after school.. n when me n ZYi boarded the 985.. it was INSANELY hot.. the driver nv on air con.. that was No. one.. later on after one stop, the driver decided to NOT stop at all.. so the other pple who wanted to alight was like.. WTF.. stop the bus u #!$%.. n in the end the driver stopped after passing 2 to 3 stops i think.. n after that he turned the air con on.. i absolutely cant find a logical explanation about this.. Wednesday, May 17, 2006
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Squall said: I worry too much about what others think of me. I hate that side of me... That's why I didn't want anyone to get to know me. I wanted to hide that side of myself. I hate it. Squall is an unfriendly, introverted guy. It made it easy for me when people perceived me that way. Tuesday, May 16, 2006
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Ta Da! handed in (or shld i say din hand in) another blank econs essay again.. 2nd one this year i think.. after 3 to 4 months.. not that i like to do so.. but i haf no idea wat to write.. n im tired of writing n getting all rejected back.. kinda waste effort.. Monday, May 15, 2006
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school dismissed earlier by an hour.. thx angie ng.. Sunday, May 14, 2006
Heartilly
Rinoa said: I guess...I'm getting scared. Sometimes...when I'm with all of you... I... feel like we're on the same wavelength......you know? But when the battle start happening, it's different. Everyone's tempo seems to pick up and...... I get left behind. I try to catch up, but it's no use... How far is everyone going? I can't hear anyone... Saturday, May 13, 2006
Kinneas
Wkends as usual if spent by myself means playing games at home.. i enjoy that anyway.. Friday, May 12, 2006
Sentosa
Went Sentosa todae wif xy zx wp et th sk n et's fren.. haha.. dunno how to spell ur name.. anyway.. juz wanna make a note on this so that i'l remember the date i went.. coz i think i'l most probably forget about it very soon.. Thursday, May 11, 2006
Starters
Been replaying ff8 this few daes.. n i suddenly remembered how i used to want to be like Squall.. the main character of the game.. kinda childish i suppose but i was primary 6 den.. but i wonder if i ever managed to get a few traits of him into myself? i was growing up too.. but i m very clear now that i'l nv bcome like him coz of many reasons.. but im still looking forward to having an era whereby we cld juz kill stuff for money.. life wld b so much easier that way.. Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Rantling
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half the week's gone.. usually thats a gd thing.. but since its the hols now.. its realli a bad thing.. 4 wks of hols n 1 is alraedi half gone.. after awhile half wld b gone n then school will start again.. zzzzz..
i wonder if i chose to b born this way b4 i was born..
kbox is expensive.. they noe its the school holidaes n they charge more! zzzzzzzz... it was ok ba.. din dislike it todae so can say it was gd.. hah..
muz make gd use of this hols.. gotta b more determined this time.. = D
anyway u made me realise one thing about myself that i probably din want to notice.. i want pple to take pity in me.. u refused to do so.. it came as a shock to me.. but it woke me up.. i realli shldnt aim to get pity from other pple.. being pitied isnt realli the coolest thing to do.. or mayb im juz realli pathetic..
hols r here.. one month.. deciding factor eh..
shall write the first part of 'eyes on me'
Whenever sang my songs.. on this stage, on my own..
Whenever said my words.. wishing they, wld b heard..
I saw u smiling at me.. was it real? or juz my fantasy..
U'd always b there in the corner.. of this tiny little bar..
Anyways.. great song.. love it..
on the 2nd bus home.. a sec sch girl sat beside me!! w00t!! she wore green skirt but i dunno which sch shes from.. haha.. anyway.. i din notice she was there til about last 4min of the ride.. was aslp b4 that.. lol.. anyway she was cute.. = p
den on my 4th bus home.. i saw this girl who looks like a fren of mine.. but i noe its not her coz she doesnt live in my vicinity.. n the best thing is.. when i alighted i wanted to c thru the window to c her face.. BUT my stupid glasses fogged up very conveniently n i din c anything.. -_-
todae's colour: light blue wif dark blue..
luke's coming back eh.. hope hes gotten richer.. lol.. = p
anyway june holidaes r here so going out is probably not much of a problem..
realised something lately..
someone said i look like i got emotional problems..
i can onli say -_- or =D
oh rite.. n wp.. looks like we can fill each other's tag boxes together.. hahahah..
wanted to put eyes on me lyrics here but i tot it's a little long so imma juz gonna note it for the while.. mayb i'l put it up in future..
revisited maths lecture todae.. boring stuff.. but i nid this boring stuff to keep me in track.. sighs..
gotta abstain from games for the while.. coz mom's not happy.. will haf to wait til june holidaes.. she's out in the mornings..
2 more daes to the end of the term.. not feeling exam like though.. fridae's the gp exam.. hope i get a suitable question..
Thinking Alot VS Thinking Deep Enough VS Thinking logically..
Squall: Fearless? I don't think that's quite right. If you think too hard, you become lost... I think that's what everyone's afraid of...
So like.. i guess that happens to me alot.. think too hard n end up lost..
btw this few nites r slpless ones..
but at least that changed after i tried the ball.. = ) i stopped a stop earlier to go to the street soccer court n small try my new ball.. it was FUN! hahah.. street soccer roxx!! even though i was trying it out alone it was still nice to play.. miss playing wif u all.. the onli thing sec 2 brought me was this experience.. anyway hope the ball wun fall apart within a few weeks..
i may scold pple very often but i realli dun mean it.. sorry to all who's suffered my wrath.. hahah..
'cept that tmr's mondae again.. boohoohoo.. haha..
anyway din touch any hmwk again this wk.. i'l take this few seconds to feel bad about it..
n todae went to fite ultima weapon.. reaching him was difficult enuff.. n i killed him wif one armageddon fist.. stupid fool.. = p
anyway heard a gamers xtreme league for dota.. my fren's in it.. wonder how'd he fare.. wld it b helpful if i was in the team? i hope i wld but i noe i wldnt enter such stuff anyway.. i fear losing..
on my bus home from dinner juz now i saw this couple in front of me.. at first i was wondering if they were a couple.. although my first instinct is always to regard them as one la.. but thruout the whole journey.. the 2 of them nv spoke a word to each other.. juz becoz they were listening to the mp3 player? it felt weird to me.. the guy juz stare infront n the gal kept looking out the window.. n btw the gal is quite cute too.. =b anyway yea until later i confirmed when i saw that their hands were held together.. hmm.. i wonder how couples usually behave.. or how different each couple can b..
one thing is.. i doubt im very intellectual..
another is the spooky coindence of the 2 split body killers recently.. they share the same birthdaes.. which is probably made worse when i share it wif them as well.. -.-
anyway if my SIS comes to read my blog.. i wanna tell u.. i'd prefer u not to.. = p
anyway one thing's for sure that i remember.. lilian commented that i think too much.. so imma writing abit of a rundown on wat i think happens wif me..
i often do things without thinking or thinking much.. n in the end it'd b full of mistakes n i'd regret ever doing those things.. OR.. i think b4 i act.. but resulting in my start to think.. i'd not b able to stop thinking coz the possibilities r great.. so in the end i'd not do anything at all n i'd probably miss the opportunity n dun get to do it afterwards.. thus i'd regret not doing those things..
bottom line is.. i seem to regret regardless of whether i think or not.. isnt that funny.. so do i realli think alot? i used to wonder about that too.. n i remember thinking that i did.. but now.. i dun even wanna think about it.. haha.. how many times haf i said i think alreadi anyway.. =p
oh rite.. had soccer todae.. about 2hrs of soccer.. including waiting time n resting time n all la.. was fun.. i guess.. still prefer street soccer..
anyway pjc juz hit the news regarding some contract thingy.. i think my CT wld oso want me to get one.. haha... wld b a load off his mind.. =p
anyway i was packing up my stuff to prepare my gp file yesterdae.. so i cleared a box full of my sec sch stuff to make space for some newer stuff.. then i came to realise that the stuff inside were mostly from sec 2.. (sec 3 n4 stuff r in another box) i found that my chi 2b workbook was totally untouched.. besides my name on the front page.. it was juz a new book.. anyway thats not very impt..
i found a personal journal assignment book n it contained my one dae event of each month from feb to oct.. kinda funny reading it.. n i recall some stuff too.. kinda cool reading them but i still threw them away afterwards.. haha.. the past is realli juz useless.. i'l juz remember them the way i want to in my mind.. i think i found some other stuff too but i cant remember alreadi.. poor memory.. = ( so i guess thats it.. for now..
anyway i got a strong feeling that im gonna b invited to remedials.. = ( i dun like it but i guess it cant b helped.. haha..
If i realli wanted to b like him.. i probly tried to instill this part of him into me.. or mayb im juz similar in terms of worrying too much about what others think of me.. mayb thats y i wanted to b like him..
todae's rather interesting.. start of the dae i was sent out of class for not doing my work.. totally reminded me of Rv days.. how nice it was.. 4i rocked.. i guess.. it was a class that brought me more events than my first 2 years in rv.. but im not very happy abt the fact that my teacher said i was shameless.. = ( she sure noes how to make me hate her... GP teacher btw..
half the wk's gone.. nice..
GP's kinda wasted as well.. file checking.. im still considering if i shld do that.. mayb anger a few more teachers a little more n i'l find myself out of the school into nowhere.. do i want that? will that happen? dun wanna think about it..
still feels kinda sad i cant play piano.. no daily practice is kinda hard to learn it..
Anyway i reminded myself to write this down.. when i was doing nothing at the econs test.. i noticed evryone around.. all kinda stressed out.. Y so stressed? m i the strange 1? its juz a test.. juz like any other subject.. dun realli nid to get stressed out over tests.. evryone's too uptight in this era.. kinda makes me feel left out.. my mom said i very kan de kai.. mayb shes rite.. mayb im wrong..
N this few daes.. feel very tired.. slp quite late during wkends but despite that.. i cant get to slp when i finally lie down.. juz turning in my bed.. mayb i shld take that time to stare at the ceiling n think..
FF8 Disc 3. Rinoa is in deep sleep. onli then does Squall show that he cares about her.. does evryone onli noe how to regret about how we took things for granted in the past? by then.. its definitely alreadi too late.. but i guess we nid a comparison to actually find out that we've been wrong..
met shi Ting at JE bus stop..
got my ff8 disc3 n4 back..
WeiPing u rock.. love ur blog entries.. = p
gotta take the battle as the exams we students face in reality.. but realli.. perhaps im scared.. when exams r coming.. or even juz tests.. evryone seems to start studying real hard.. tempo picks up n performs to their effort.. m i left behind? can i chase up? sometimes thinking about this juz seems frightening n i'l tend to not think about it.. is it correct to juz stop thinking about things juz coz i noe that it's going to b very complicated? or mayb juz coz the outcome will not b something i like.. thats y i stop thinking about it..
finished ff8 disc 2 todae.. cldnt find disc3 n 4.. realised at nite that i lent to daniel.. who luckily confirmed that fact with me almost immediately.. will get it from him tmr..
tmr mondae again.. school still sucks.. ever since secondary 1.. it sucked.. primary school was still ok.. =b watever it is.. i'l haf to get pass it til the end of this year..
currently to me.. i've got 5 more months to noe the effects of wat im doing, or not doing, at the moment.. thats probly juz wat the a levels mean at the moment..
So i found that Irvine (ff8) said some interesting stuffs too...
You've all heard this before. How life has infinite possibilities. I don't believe that one bit. There weren't many paths for me to choose. Sometimes, there would only be one. From the limited possibilities I faced, the choices I made have brought me this far. That's why I value the path I chose... I want to hold true to the path that HAD to be taken....
It's not like I drifted here on the tides of fate. I'm here because I chose to be here....
As a kid, you couldn't really go out on your own... There were no other paths to take... All I did was just cry. But....
We're not kids anymore... We're strong enough to take care of ourselves. Make our own decisions....
Shoot for a common goal... Hey, at least it'll keep us together a little longer.
Thats probably all that has much meaning to anything besides the game itself.. so like.. i've grown up n im definitely not much limited as when i was a kid.. but im not sure if i chose the paths i took.. but definitely they were paths that i HAD to take.. so is that fate? or is that wat i chose.. chose to not choose? kinda confusing if i continue thinking about it.. when evrythings a mess at a point of time.. will things clear itself up after a while? or mayb i'l still end up having the need to do something abt it.. but juz that nows not the time.. im still a kid inside..
Sentosa was quite packed todae.. Pubby hols sure applies for evryone.. the bus queue there was the longest i've ever seen.. played soccer basketball there.. wonder y we go all the way there to do that.. -.- n den went in the water for a while too.. wasnt too much sun so im still about the same.. nothing realli special to note about there.. juz came back n had pasta mania as a form of xy's birthdae celebration.. happy birthdae! hahah...
2 more daes b4 school starts again.. kinda short.. but at least its juz the beginning of the wkends.. hope the holidae for the election dae comes soon.. im sick of school.. practically wastes my time waiting for classes to begin.. dumb school wif dumb timetable planner.. zzzzzzzzzzzz......
anyway looked for the game script of ff8 todae so i can put up some stuff Squall said..
(Am I that untrusting...? Maybe I'm this way because I'm scared.)(Nothing lasts in this world.) (It feels great to have friends who believe in you, and adults you can rely on.) (That's why it's so dangerous, especially if you become used to it.) (Someday you're bound to lose everything. Everybody around you will be gone.) (Then what are you left with? Nothing. Nobody... It's so miserable.) (And it's inevitable. It's so hard to recover from something like that.) (I never ever want to deal with that again. I can't. Even if it means being alone...)
actually he doesnt say this things but juz thinks them in his head.. that is juz to show that he doesnt share wif anyone wat he realli is thinking..
anyway thats that.. hes afraid of losing his frens and so he chooses to b alone.. was i like dat? m i like dat? sometimes i feel that i've got the same tots n problems that he has.. but i guess its juz my imagination.. i always wanted to b like him.. mayb juz coz hes 'cool' n hes elite.. excels in evrything he does.. i clearly differ from him here.. im too lazy to excel in anything.. mayb its coz i've got a family.. thats y even if i want to b alone.. i'l nv b alone..
is it stupid to analyze n think so much into a game character? i juz like to do that.. especially when i feel so much about Squall's mentality.. the game's becoming boring alreadi.. so i guess i like the game definitely not becoz of the gameplay.. hah..
anyway i'l get more stuff next entry.. dun wanna deplete evrything on one.. haha.. there's quite some more stuff that i can take from wat Squall thinks n says..
Thats Edith's wall paintings.. it realli means welcome to bloggerness.. yea something like dat.. anyway thx Edith for Creating this Blog.. I wldnt haf done so otherwise.. hahah... anyway currently dun want to blog much on the first entry so til the next time.. But b4 that.. I still feel that wat im writing seems to converse wif the reader more than wif myself.. hmm.. mayb that'l haf to change.. wif time..