many things haf happened since then i guess.. well.. a year's time ain't long but i guess it ain't short either.. in that one year, i met new frens, gained a bit more trust in the people i met in that immersion, lost my mother, graduated from university.. i'd wish that i cld include started working in that summary of my past year but unfortunately reality's a bitch sometimes..

although i always doubted my own humanity, i do still hold emotions that i do not express so openly.. i do miss my mother.. and its true that i get pissed when my sister says she misses mum.. not coz i think its stupid or wrong to do that.. but that saying it out is pointless.. n there's nothing i can do about it.. nor do i want to feel sad about it together either..

many things haf changed.. big changes.. i got a real bed, more 'control' of my room, threw out stuff n all, my brother got married, i no longer sit in the dark in my room listening to songs.. which was the thing that tickled my nostalgia when i heard that song...

i din go to korea again.. i did feel like going, but things juz din work out in the end... now everyone's in korea, if not now then soon anyway.. i feel like locking myself away in the darkness again, juz like how i used to.. but i no longer haf that luxury of childishness..

i havent drank like i did in korea n during school ever since my mum left.. or mayb a whiles before that too, but i guess its juz a coincidence.. i dunno.. but i somehow dun haf that much want to anymore.. mayb coz no one's around.. or maybe i nv liked to in the first place.

This world today seems to haf no place for people with no real ambition.. pple like me.. its sad really.. how the world today is so dumb wif wat is valued and wat is not..