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Monday, January 29, 2007
24 daes since i blogged.. tho it seemed longer than that.. to me.. Friday, January 05, 2007
ok juz a short note.. i had a dream last nite.. again.. hah.. but this one was a rather happy one.. ok not realli a happy one.. but it took place in my sec 4 classroom!! hah.. it was rather short i guess.. but thinking abt the classroom alone makes me happy.. i miss that kinda system where we got a classroom to return to... but that classroom is physically nonexistent anymore.. sighx..
Thursday, January 04, 2007
mayb blogging once per week isnt such a bad idea.. ha.. but considering the fact that things haf n haf not happened.. n things that happened i dun wanna blog about n things that haf not happened i cant possibly blog about.. so wats there to blog about? hah.. mayb writing a diary by pen cld b so much of a better idea.. i've got tons of waste paper anyway...
it was a choice i made.. a decision.. not of a lack of ability to do so...
im working soon.. starting feb 1st.. my first experience to earn..
ok for a change im listening to a jap song by ayumi.. im not realli into the jpop stuff but i saw this mtv on tv n tot i'd juz try to learn it.. listening to it a few hundred times shld help..
n im working rather slowly wif valkyrie profile.. although i've clocked 11 hrs on it.. im juz halfway thru.. n most of my time is still on pko.. kinda time wasting realli.. no real point in playing anymore since the pple who were playing that led me to play haf alreadi stopped playing.. well.. mostly at least..
adult fare has kinda made me even more resisting to go out.. but im still going pool later.. hah..
parents n sis going thailand this sundae.. i'l b at home alone for a few daes.. kinda happy.. hah.. but onli kinda.. i wonder how its like to b home alone for most of the daes.. my bro has to work n so will onli b home at nite.. im not in the least bit sad that i cant go.. i prefer staying in singapore.. thats where im most familiar wif.. i hate strange new environments..
which is probably y i've yet to find employment.. i dun feel like roaming into the society.. i prefer to stay a child...
im honestly more dishonest than honest..
this sat many pple coming over to celebrate grandma's birthdae.. wld haf went to a resturant if not bcoz my grandma dun want that n wants to come over.. i wonder y.. my place is so small n cramped when evryone comes.. but oh wells.. i've probably gotten used to it..
n theres one rather interesting thing.. the reverend at the temple my family goes to.. he seems to want to haf disciples.. when my brother was young, he wanted to take him in.. but i guess my brother wld nv b a monk.. hah.. hes non vegetarian totally.. n so now he wants me to b a monk.. he says he wants to teach me.. ha.. it seemed quite scary at first.. to me.. i din want to b restricted by the rules.. but after so long.. i can c that the simple life is wat i always wanted.. which sometimes scares me when i think abt being a monk.. ha.. but i guess being his disciple doesnt realli mean i nid to b a monk ba.. juz a helper or something mayb.. but i'll probably not make a gd one anyway.. im too much evil than gd.. purging wld require a lifetime..
anyway going thru the glyphs of my past.. ha.. i realise that i've written down the fact that i've grown too tired to continue living more than few times... yet im still here writing this down.. perhaps im too frail in doing or too strong in thinking..
i've promised not to take my own life n try not to take another's.. ha.. but i still hope that after death.. the out of life experience is that of wat i imagine to b... ha..