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Monday, March 16, 2009
2 slpless nites
Sunday, March 15, 2009
wat a terrible sunday it has been today.... mainly due to the fact that i cldnt fall aslp last nite.. Saturday, March 14, 2009
it doesnt really feel that long since i last blogged though... 13 days... but i guess time flew past a little bit faster than usual in the past 13 days ba.. sadly due to the fact that i had a little rare mc spell for the extraction of my wisdom tooth of coz.. which even more sadly, has alreadi ended yesterday... Sunday, March 01, 2009
one thing i did this week.. went for jing ru's autograph session! haha..
i had turned in at 12 plus last nite n i assumed i'd b able to slp within a hour at most.. but it turned out that it was one of those slpless nites n it i wld think it was one of the worst ones i've had.. mainly again.. due to the fact that i seem to haf been plagued wif nitemares n weird visions of some of the pple that i've met in my life... n these pple arent exactly even considered acquaintances of mine... but anyway it was a real pain to get thru the nite n i can rmb waking up at 4am to find myself realli tired...
it was made worse of coz by the fact that i felt very heaty the entire first half of the day.. n there was alot of noise pollution to me.. hah.. partly from the malay wedding going on downstairs, n partly coz my bro was listening to his Jeneration album in the living room due to the fact that his player in the room wasnt working.. i tore thru most of the day wif a terrible headache.. but the sunny weather turned wet n the rain was pouring like it nv did b4.. haha.. that was rite after i bathed n funnily i had a strong feeling of wanting to stand in the rain when i was bathing.. of coz i din expect the rain to b that heavy but the feeling was really very real n strong..
luckily my headache lifted by now.. else i probably wun b here.. ha..
anyway i rmbed the missing thing i wanted to blog about yesterday..
it was the direction in which the relation actually works... coz its almost a hard fact that i adore fish leong, i was wondering if it was becoz of this fact that i haf this longing for a relationship, or is it becoz of this longing for a relationship that attracted me to fish leong, whos supposed to b the queen of love songs i guess? ha...
also, i've been watching this show on SCV called the most beautiful 7th day.. haha.. its directly translated from chinese la.. hah.. but i like this show.. its kinda like the other show tian mu xia de lian ren.. i think that one showed on channel U b4.. the actors are almost all the same plus a few more.. hah.. but i think its realli quite a nice romantic comedy serial kinda show.. ha.. i wonder again... if its coz i've always wanted romance that i like this show.. or that i watch this show which made me feel like falling in love... ha..
been thru a few things these past week i guess.. one being wisdom tooth, another being lilian's birthday.. i vaguely remember one other thing i shld note but i dunno wat it is at the moment.. ha..
nothing much about my wisdom tooth except that i was blindfolded during the 'operation'.. hah.. not exactly covering my eyes wif a cloth but my face above my mouth was indeed wrapped up n i cldnt c anything at all.. i believe no one else has this since no one told me about it.. so this is something i tot i shld note.. ha..
n den its lilian's birthday celebrations, which was yesterday.. 5 days in advance.. i guess i was a bit disappointed that my saints t shirt wasnt valued to b within the theme.. haha.. but oh wells.. at least there were real sporting pple.. so sorry that we disappointed u at the start lilian.. ha.. its those sporting pple's fault for coming late... hah... i can understand it wld haf been quite a lowering spirit to c the first few grps of pple to b not 'appropriately dressed' hah..
but i guess it was all goin well in the end ba.. ha.. at least it was something new for me.. ha.. nv saw those wings in real life b4.. onli saw them on tv even if it was a live programme somewhere in singapore.. ha..
i wonder if i shld celebrate my birthday though.. i muz still admit that it wasnt realli a positive motivation to me to do my own after attending hers.. ha...
anyway i seem to haf started feeling detached from my life again.. ha... it seems like im missing something.. some link wif my frens.. i've quit msn for now since my less than useless com cant take the pop ups when pple come online.. so at least i nid to use facebook without the nid to live thru 5 minutes of hang time after each click..
i manage my finances based on being a single entity.. i think if i had a girlfren, my entire formula will crumble to bits.. so although i dunno whether i shld b happy that i've always failed at attracting positive feelings, it probably is something that i dun nid to fret about..
basically i've always thought that being single was alot freer.. lolx.. as far as im concerned, its much easier to move about when ur by urself.. but it was due to many external reasons that made me feel that life is about family.. or at least MY life will haf to b about creating my own family.. mayb all i haf to do is admit that i cannot fulfil that requirement.... juz like how i cant fulfil alot of other things that is required of me.. ha..
1 month 10 days more.... even if after i ORD, i start saying that after ORD the feeling of excitement will b gone.. I DUN MIND... SO LONG AS IM NO LONGER IN THIS STINKING SORRY EXCUSE OF A MILITARY ORGANISATION, I'l still b happy saying that as a CIVILIAN... i dun express much when other pple talk about life after NS of coz.. but i guess i still feel pissed when they treat it like something i shldnt look forward to..
it had alreadi been decided quite long ago to go for this one i guess.. ever since i bought the album, wp n me probably wld haf alreadi decided to go for this one alreadi.. also.. since sam had alreadi orded.. i had asked him along for this as well...
but about a week or a few days b4 the day, 25th feb, sam had alreadi informed me that he had to attend his fren's 21st birthday so wun b coming.. so i tot it'd b me n wp liaox.. since i felt that wp wanted to go for this more than i did... BUT in the end.. a few hours b4 that, he tells me that he had something on n cldnt make it.. thus leaving me, alone, by myself, to haf to go for this one...
not that its much of a problem actually.. but i juz din wanna do this one by myself... so i approached a couple of frens.. girls of coz.. haha.. n asked if they wanted to go.. but i guess they are all rather busy... n the one who probably has time isnt interested.. haha.. so i decided to stop asking at the 3rd person n juz go for it myself...
im so called alreadi joined the fishdreamsg fan club n conveniently had a number of one of the pple in the grp... so i contacted her n asked some stuff again... BUT i muz say that i feel that this fan club realli isnt that great.... mayb in my mind, i had a idea of how it wld b like.. thats y this grp doesnt meet my expectations.. but seriously.. i feel that this grp is realli toooooo non frenly...
at the end of it i had my 2 seconds wif jing ru lo... nothing spectacular.. but at least even without all the hype of the first time i went... i still smiled when we exchanged greetings on the stage...
jing ru mentioned rainbows that day.. but i onli knew that it was a double rainbow a few days ago... i din c it myself of coz.. but there are some photos floating around n i caught one of them.. ha..
contemplating on my birthday again... mayb i'l juz get evryone to go to the pinnacle at chevrons ba... its the easiest option at the moment now...
finding someone wif similar interests n similar free time eh... i suppose being in the same class wld help...
half way thru the 2009 NS liaox.. 2 more months to go... lets hope for the best.. hope i can tolerate it til the end.. b4 i explode n 'do something' against the 'rules'..
on a side note.. my bro bought jay's mtv recently.. caught the mtv for snake dance... lara is in it.. dressed in egyptian style n all.. i nv realli tot she looked very pretty.. but i think i like her make up in the mtv.. her face looks very nice to me.. haha..