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Wednesday, December 31, 2008
hmm.. it seems like it works at least a little.. i shld try it for a few more times if i nid to.. evrytime i become too negative n want to post something thats soooo negative that even i myself feel that its dangerous, i'l juz post a 'post' post here.. mayb i'l b able to reflect upon how many i'l put up.. its sort of like the nails on the wooden plank thing i guess...
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Tuesday, December 30, 2008
it seems like everyone in my pri sch class is saying that we shld get together more often.. that we've not contacted each other for such a long time that they'd think it was impossible to haf seen each other on such a grand scale b4 this day..but they themselves shld haf realised that they if nobody bothered to put in an effort to organise anything at all.. nothing wld b possible.. so i suppose they tot that they werent influential enuff to b able to command such a big crowd to come together again after all these years? i dunno about that.. personally i think its realli coz they cldnt care less about it.. ha.. after all.. i was the one who said "y bother" to the question of getting as many pple to go as possible.. so i suppose bsides jade who's role in this is one of the more definite ones, i'd say the others who bothered to round up pple shld receive thanks as well.. ha.. but i onli noe sw took up one of these roles..not entirely sure about the others.. haha.. Monday, December 29, 2008
Basically, I suppose i can split the chalet into 2 categories, mainly for the parts with the entire participants, n then another wif those who stayed over..
finally something interesting to blog about.. ha.. this past wkend was one of the more eventful wkends i've had in months.. or mayb even years.. but i guess not evrything is worth blogging much about.. but since im here i decided to juz go ahead n do it, both regarding the more exciting ones and the less exciting ones as well..
in a little more than an hour's time will b the new year.. although the word 'new' doesnt realli mean much anymore since this new one turns old after 365 days and another new one comes again no matter wat.. so im not realli feeling it anymore.. ha..
i wonder if i've realli woken up from my drunken stupor at the chalet last sundae morning.. ha.. it seems like whenever i feel sleepy i'l start to feel high again.. lolx.. mayb its juz me.. getting self high.. but the problem probably isnt the fact that im still high at times ba.. its probably more of the fact that after the momentary high period, i'l drop to a low low mood n start thinking ultra negatively.. ha.. thereby becoming emo n feeling helplessly sad..
it seems like the more i enjoy n love the outside world, the more i detest n hate the army... this is like prison... i feel.. so.. .........
or mayb evryone's saying this onli in the moment of excitement.. they've juz gotten back from wat seems to haf been the most fun thing they've done in recent weeks or even months.. that they WANT to feel it again asap... pple start saying things like 'oh now we got each other's contacts we can go out anytime' or 'lets go sing K' or 'lets juz get together again'.. im not refering to anyone exactly.. since i'm onli citing general examples.. haha..but i believe that 80% of these pple onli say this in hopes to spur up the emotions of the other individual in the conversation and let him put something together.. i believe that after the 2nd week or so of the new year, nobody will b talking to each other about coming together anymore.. haha.. life b4 this chalet wld continue n this will juz become a distant memory..
of coz.. this is juz a story im coming wif myself as i dunno wat to blog about.. LOL.. or mayb coz i tend to think negatively.. but i feel that from my experience of my past 10 or so years.. this is wat usually happens.. yes it is true that out of the 20 plus pple that came together last wkend, there will definitely be pple who got closer to one another, or mayb a grp of 4 or 5 pple who had remained in close contact wif one another will grow to mayb 6 to 7 pple.. but there will always b at least half of the populace who will juz start wandering off again..
ok.. mayb i M starting to think negatively for the sake of sounding emo.. LOLX.. but i dunno.. i've chosen to leave my current frens whenever i had the opportunity since i was young.. mayb kindergarden doesnt count.. but from pri to sec to jc to NS, the transition always sees me going to another environment where i'm without any of my previous frens.. mayb thats y i feel that frens cant realli b kept for that long a time.. i dunno.. hah... i've always felt that frens were frens onli coz they were there.. coz they are conveniently there when u nid them.. it cld b half true.. that convenience is definitely one reason y pple stick to certain individuals.. but i've yet to realli feel the greatness of frenship...
n oso i cant help but feel that there is an unknown fear towards talking to certain pple in a crowd of frens.. or that there is a certain invisible wall that surrounds certain characters such that they will b pushed slightly out of reach of their supposed circle of frens.. but yet not far enuff to connect wif another.. or mayb i juz feel that pple still cant get very close to me despite me chosing to b the joker a few months ago.. haha.. i guess its pretty hard to change a personality trait or at least its hard to change the perception of ur personality trait.. i mean i dun juz feel that pple still has a tiny fear of me in a certain sense of the word la.. i oso feel that i cannot approach some pple as well even though im well aware that there is nothing to fear.. ha.. after all these years.. i've tried to bolster my guts.. to b braver than i was with each passing year.. but all i've been capable of doing is probably to brave thru physical tests than psychological ones.. i'm able to jump from a 2nd floor easily without worrying that i'd hurt myself.. but i'm unable to talk to someone whom i've nv spoken to b4 to ask if he cld let me join in the fun...
mayb i juz crave attention.. haha... oh wells.. i guess i shld stop writing about this coz i'm feeling emo n that anything i can think of within the next few hours will oso turn out emo.. haha....
its better to blog about events than my feelings... ha..
but yet.. i'm not sure wat i can blog about regarding the stayoverers of the chalet.. ha.. under the secrecy policy.. i dunno wat i can reveal n wat i cannot reveal.. or mayb its onli visuals that i cannot reveal n words haf no regard as to violating the policy.. or mayb the policy is onli there to safeguard my own interests n therefore my breaking it has no meaning watsoever to any other being.. ha..
or mayb im juz too lazy n thus coming up wif such a strange excuse.. either way.. i'l juz end here for now...
oh n i realised that i'm doing the last duty of the year in my office.. n oso the first duty of next year... wow... hurray... sigh...
4 more months to go...
i guess i can b happy that i managed to bring in kevin whom no one else seemed to b able to reach.. it was by sheer coincidence that i managed to find him too anyway.. ha.. it turned out to b a rather pleasant surprise for everyone when kevin arrived.. i had after all, conveniently kept it to myself that i had asked kevin to come along.. a pity he cldnt stay over due to his busy schedule.. haha.. but since it turned out that more than half the crowd din stay over in the end, it wasnt realli that big a deal..
so anyway met the grp of Shuwen, Weiwei, Siting, Binghui, Kevin, Weibin, and Yuhui at Je.. I had a small miscalculation wif my timing or mayb the bus juz came earli that dae.. but i managed to reach about 10min earlier than agreed upon.. i went up n saw SW there alreadi.. i suppose she cld afford to b earli coz she was alreadi there at Je prior to meeting us.. but i din meet up wif her directly n went back downstairs to popular.. onli dropping her an sms to hint that i was there.. kinda typical thing i'd do.. hah..
i'd haf expected latecomers of up to 30minutes.. but it turned out that when i went back upstairs, WW was alreadi there n followed shortly was BH and ST.. Kevin was on time i guess.. n the onli latecomer was WB who was 15min late.. so i guess this is a more punctual grp than the others that i noe of.. ha.. YH was on the platform alreadi since she took the train from boon lay? i'd assume she did la.. ha.. our next line of operation was to pick up the next member of our travel grp, Eileen, who was going to be at City hall, or Raffles place.. forgot le.. ha.. and then after that all the way to pasir ris..
We wld b meeting up wif the rest of the crew at pasir ris station.. but we were so called earlier i guess.. coz i din c or at least din notice anyone when we got there.. i went wif the guys to get soda as promised much earlier b4 whilst the rest waited there.. at that point i was still rather unclear as to who we were going to c.. i onli knew Zhihao, Siti, n someone else was going to b there.. im sorry but i dun rmb who that someone else was.. lolx...
anyway i was rather surprised to c some pple there.. namely, woonchang, whom i probably haf had the least memories of.. ha.. n then jun hao n yongling... junhao probly coz of the same reason as woonchang, yongling coz i din noe she was meeting us at the station.. tot she was going to b later at the chalet, n junhao N Yongling.. coz i din noe they were together.. haha... evryone who was supposed to b there was there by the time we came back from the supermarket n so we set off.. i was thinking we'd take the bus but ended up walking over.. ha.. but i muz still say that we din realli spend much time waiting... or mayb im juz too used to the need to wait for latecomers.. ha..
i hope i din miss anyone out.. ha.. but anyway, after the long walk over to downtown east area, we finally reached n met up wif the most important person of the entire event.. n she is none other than miss Jade! haha.. without her i think none of this wld haf been possible.. n without her, I'd haf needed to spend more than i'd liked.. haha.. although im not one who likes to take advantage of a fren.. but im happy that someone's settling the bill.. ha...
So bring on the barbecue! hah.. after entering the not so big chalet room of DTE, n spending about 5 minutes getting to noe our HQ of sorts.. ha.. N after taking about 2 to 3 pictures, we stepped outside n embraced our roles of BBQers.. im not exactly familiar wif making edible stuffs, so i haf to commend ZH for being such a nice guy n doing the main cooking.. (I'd refer to Zhihao as ZH instead of CH coz i think hes chi name is nicer than when its spelled in eng..) ha.. although i haf to say that sometimes he rushes too much n puts too many things on the grill.. haha.. but WB was there too to help out more than i did.. ha.. I was mainly there doing minimal chores n soaking up the smoke which irritated my eyes a hell lot.. haha.. i wldnt say the other guys din help much but i juz tot i give those 2 an honorable mention.. ha..
it din take long b4 the sky turned dark n pple started turning up too.. im not sure about the timing.. but i noe Ziwei, Lester, Mdm Noor Marlah, and Wenqi came over.. n den even later Shiqi, and Shuzhen came.. i hope im not missing anyone out again.. after a buncha typical doings at a BBQ, taking some grp photos n stuff, n hearing our teacher's stories on life n stuff.. pple started leaving alreadi.. n then the grp filtered out into the stayoverers.. ha.. wif the exception of Ziwei n Kevin i think.. since they werent staying over but they din leave wif the main grp of leavers.. ha..
guess i will take this chance to rest my fingers n memory recalling for a while.. haha..
i suppose i can start from fridae.. i still had to work on fridae.. however much i din feel like going after christmas, i had to still.. but i took half dae off at least.. n met wp for lunch n borrowed his death note comics.. ha.. i watched the anime b4 n read some of the manga prior to this but i wanted to check out the comic itself as well.. also to reiterate, since i believe i've said it b4, that im a Yagami Light supporter.. ha.. not that i approve of killing humans with absolutely no compassion at all and wif onli his own goals in mind, I dun disapprove of it much either.. ha.. I also agree that some pple ARE indeed better off dead than left alive.. its juz that nobody can do it that easily n that the person will haf to burden the accusation of being a murderer.. ha.. else I would probably haf taken out a number of pple alreadi.. no matter how horrid that may seem to b..
So after lunch, we decided to watch a movie.. or rather, HE decided to watch a movie.. haha.. since im not exactly a cinema person, I juz anythinged my way into watching Yes Man.. hah.. i guess the movie was Ok at least.. but its realli a total movie movie.. saying YES to anything and everything is the one thing that nobody in the world would b able to do or want to do.. i'd say the average person wun b able to do it, n the better off pple wun want to do it.. ha.. but i guess the message of the show IS the exact opposite after all.. ha.. its trying to tell pple to b positive.. but at the same time, u cant please evrybody.. so moderation is a muz.. but the most important thing is to not shut urself off towards the rest of the world.. but i guess theres a handful of movies in the past trying to give out the same message.. ha..
next up is the nite of fridae.. I was expecting a mahjong date wif 3 of my jc frens.. sam, ris and GL.. but i guess it wasnt realli the most exciting date thus far coz the build up to it wasnt exactly fantastic.. ha.. in fact, it felt more like a last minute thing rather than an appointment made earlier on.. but since sam said that we had alreadi agreed upon getting this done this wkend earlier, i guess i plainly forgot about it n that doesnt realli speak very well about how i was looking at this mahjong session.. not that i dun like to play of coz.. ha.. but it was simply juz overshadowed by the upcoming pri 6 class gathering/chalet the next dae..
anyway onto the mj session, i went over to sam's place first coz i din haf much to do at home anyway.. ha.. was trying to refrain from playing any games coz i needed to store up enuff battery for the mjs n the chalet.. so i went over at 8 plus or so to watch the spurs match wif him first.. hes a spurs fan after all.. n i wasnt exactly a fan of fulham.. so i was able to support the same side he was.. ha.. but it ended up a goaless draw n it wasnt the best result to get but i guess theres alot more worse ones.. we were expecting to start at 11 plus or so coz GL was onli able to arrive at that time.. so after the match we still had some time left to prep up.. n since we had things to do, it wasnt exactly a lull period prior to the game.. ha.. we had to borrow a mj table from ris coz apparently sams' table was missing.. ha.. so we went over to pick up the table n as expected.. was given a more than warm welcome from ris' dog goldie.. or jodie.. ha.. dun rmb.. anyway by the time we got back to sam's place wif the dog, urm.. i mean table, we were approximately 10 to 15 minutes away from the bell.. nothing much happened after until all arrived n we got the game going.. ha..
im not sure y i like to write down almost evry detail of the event but i guess its my style of writing, aka longwindedness.. ha.. oh wells..
we played til 3 plus onli n they decided to stop.. ha.. after one round of NSEW onli too.. i was expecting to play til the sun came up n so this was far earlier than expected.. but i din mind coz i needed to get as much rest as i cld coz i expected the chalet to b the main event of this wkend..
but i'd still want to comment that i was being very mean playing the mj as i totally stuck to the duty of being an ass n not allowing the person after me to get anything out of the tiles i discarded.. ha.. although i wasnt exactly successful n i ended up losing a dollar.. we were playing rather small.. ha.. but 2 players won n 2 players lost.. so im third out of the 4 n its not something i'd like to b.. ha.. the most stunning lost i made was when i discarded the east tile n 2 of them were alreadi out.. so i assumed it was the safest thing to do.. but i ended up letting GL win becoz he was waiting for that one last east tile n it was the last thing i'd haf expected him to nid.. ha..
so after returning the table i slept over at sam's place as i wasnt going to take anything other than a bus home n there wasnt any at 4am in the morning.. ha.. so i rested til 8 plus n set off to basketball action at the ayer rajah CC! haha..
Amazingly, i managed to get split in to a team which proceeded to win all the matches that day! haha.. it was the best day i've had playing bball there wif the rv guys.. im probably considered the lousiest player there since i've onli started playing wif them since a month or 2 ago n they've been playing for the past 3 or 4 years.. ha... so winning games realli felt good for me.. haha... went home at 12 plus although they continued to play.. partly coz i din want to go home too late, n partly coz i wanted to end the dae wif a win! haha..
i suppose i will b blogging about the chalet in another separate entry.. although after typing so much.. i feel like 80% of wat i've written is realli not important at all n shld haf been left out.. ha.. so i wonder how i shld go about blogging about the chalet.. but i guess i'l do the same la.. lazy to change my style ya.. haha...