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Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Simple Happiness.
I've learnt to create my very own state of happiness that doesnt directly affect anyone unless i take it to the next level.. hah.. kinda strange way to describe it but to me, happiness comes in the most simplest ways n one of which is the attraction of the opposite gender. ha..
anyway this form of happiness oso coincidentally comes in the morning n so gives me a refreshing start to my evrydae life. ok mayb not evrydae but evry weekdae. of which i'd probably nid it anyways.. i enjoy my wkends wif or without any activites.. ha.. idle is a luxury after all..
anyway like i mentioned earlier that it was a simple attraction of girls for me. of coz i shldnt put it this way lest it makes it look like im a lustful wolfdog kinda person which im obviously not.. = p
its realli juz that i've noticed this JJC girl ever since the start of this year.. she goes to school at about the same time as i leave for work evrydae. n so i'd say out of 5 daes at least 4 of them wld see me taking the same bus as she wld. we wait at the same bus stop to take to je where we change to different buses.. so its kinda like we'd board n alight at the same places once evrydae. anyway shes not realli the typical girl i'd realli b attracted to since i like girls wif long hair more than those wif juz shoulder length or short hair. but she has shoulder length hair n her facial features r quite normal as well. kinda resembles a fren of mine in PJ first 3 months too.. but anyway i guess looking normal is alreadi a beauty in itself for me. but apart from the face n hair which r the 2 aspects that i commonly look at, i feel that shes got the perfect evrything else. haha.. although i've yet to talk to her or even tried to do anything funny.. ha.. which is like i said earlier too that it doesnt affect anyone else coz i'm juz happy seeing her evry morning.. so unless i talk to her or approach her in any way, i'd not b upheaved to a state of happierness and neither wld i b pushed down a cliff of despair. ha.. but either way, i'd c how chance puts it for me again next time.
n i'd say next time bcoz i was inspired to blog again todae bcoz i feel that todae was a day worth mentioning.. my love luck or however minor that kinda thing can become, was rather high todae. i guess i shall juz start describing from when i was still at home. i spent a gd 20 minutes listening to jing ru's songs this morning coz i woke up earli enuff to spend that kinda time n still wun b late. but i left home 2 minutes later than usual. of coz 2 minutes is probably a minor lapse of time but it can make a big difference when catching the bus. but anyway i shall not go on about my theory of small time lapse to big time delays. that shall b another dae's work. ha.. so i left 2 minutes later than yesterdae n went down to the bus stop. it was rather packed wif pple n so i cld safely assume that todae the 2 minutes din matter coz the bus hasnt come. as it was packed i stood quite a distance from the bus stop. its nothing much but juz the norm at that bus stop anyway so from where i was i tried to find the JJC girl. i think i shall give her the name Alph. so i looked around but cldnt seem to spot her.
when the bus came, i moved closer to the bus stop of coz. n den i finally saw Alph alreadi at the bus stop. i suppose she was earlier than usual to b able to get a spot there. ha.. anyway as the bus was a few moments later than usual, there was also a bigger crowd than usual boarding the bus. as i finally managed to see her, i felt happy at the immediate moment. ha..
so as i slowly boarded the bus behind probably about 12 to 15 pple, i looked to c if there were seats available as usual. but then i saw Alph sitting in the front half of the bus. probably about 2 seats in front of the alighting door. it was the green seat. which is the 'healthy pple go away' seat for me. but i cldnt realli care that much coz she was very considerately sitting inside n the space beside her was available. so i din bother to c if there were any seats behind, i juz slowly walked to that position n sat down beside her. ha.. i muz mention that i was playing my nds while waiting for the bus as well. n so after sitting beside her, i continued doing so. ha.. but i noticed a few things about her too.
firstly she was holding on to a handout which on that page had a heading called imperfect competition. i suppose that term onli appears in economics? ha.. n then she took out her handphone n plugged in the hands free set n switched to radio listening to station 98.7. so i suppose she is a english song person? which wld mean that i'd stand little chance of striking a convincingly interesting conversation wif her on the music aspect i guess. n den i also took this chance to look at her closer. n i mean juz looking at her appearance from a 'person beside her' point of view. i noticed she has very beautiful fingers n that added almost a gd 50 out of 100 marks in my heart. ha..
anyway thruout the bus ride of barely 7 or so minutes? at most 10 i believe, she was mostly juz looking out the window n not at her notes.. hah.. i wonder if shes taking it easy or that she noes its bad for her eyes to read on the bus which wasnt realli brightly lit. either way so we juz continued our own way of enjoying the bus ride n alighted opposite the library.
another interesting surprise for me todae was that the usually packed bus stop was totally EMPTY todae. we werent the onli ones alighting at the bus stop but the others either crossed the road or went the other way. we were the onli 2 pple left at the bus stop.
which on a side note, brings me to describe the usual scene at the bus stop. there wld b about 3 to 6 different schooled students at the bus stop. they can usually b grped into 2 grps. one grp for bus 198 n the other for 176. i suppose theres another grp for 178 as well. but thats a smaller grp.
but anyway the 3 to 6 different schools arent individuals. from wat i gather, i shld b able to safely assume that theres always about 5 JJC students excluding her. n one of them seems to b Alph's fren. coz i believe i saw them talking to each other.
ok back to this morning, we both sat down on the bench there. probably a metre apart. i still did not talk to her or anything despite the fact that we were there alone n it was almost the best chance i'd get in a decade. ha.. but i continued to act like i was intrigued by pokemon but i was actually trying to see wat she was doing.. ha.. she was studying her notes for a few seconds, i'd say at most a minute, b4 bending forward to c if the bus was arriving. n den going back to her notes. i was wondering at that moment if i shld wait wif her n den take 198 b4 changing to 180 n den 177. but i was thinking if she mite feel something strange about me if i did. afterall we probably noe of each other's existence n she shld noe wat bus i usually take. so after losing my pokemon battle n feeling rather pissed, i closed my nds n kept it in my bag. i noticed that she was bending forward so i sat straight. den when she sat back i bent forward to c the bus. thats the problem wif that bus stop la. got the stupid fence blockin the view. anyway i was thinking of watching the bus for her. so i kept watch when she wasnt. but within a minute of me keeping my nds, 176 came n i took it n left. kinda lousy ending for that little morning i had. n i realised that 198 din seem to b coming within the next 3 minutes or so. so i guess i shld haf stuck wif her til she boarded her bus eh.
Sillyness.
Im also capable of doing very silly things for something or someone i like. coz after work, i took up my officer's offer n took his car out of my work place. i cld haf chosen to get off somewhere nearer to je n den going home from there but i said i wanted to go to the JJC bus stop. well for 1 my officer lives near there so its oso more convenient for him i guess. but i wasnt being considerate but i was juz hoping to c if i'd get to meet Alph again. i suppose i was testing to c if my 'love luck' was able to last the whole dae. but of coz i din c her at all. n so after giving up one 198 to take i took the 2nd one to je. i guess my sillyness is quickly overridden by my impatience or my rationality.
if i had talked to her n asked for her no. or something in the morning i cld haf probably followed up when i went to JJC. but i guess its in me to give up chances all over the place. ha..
so i'l juz hug my little pieces of happiness each morning til the year ends n then i'l nv c her again n i'l move on to my next phase in life.. hah.. University will b my real battlefield. lolx.