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Wednesday, December 31, 2008
hmm.. it seems like it works at least a little.. i shld try it for a few more times if i nid to.. evrytime i become too negative n want to post something thats soooo negative that even i myself feel that its dangerous, i'l juz post a 'post' post here.. mayb i'l b able to reflect upon how many i'l put up.. its sort of like the nails on the wooden plank thing i guess...
in a little more than an hour's time will b the new year.. although the word 'new' doesnt realli mean much anymore since this new one turns old after 365 days and another new one comes again no matter wat.. so im not realli feeling it anymore.. ha..
i wonder if i've realli woken up from my drunken stupor at the chalet last sundae morning.. ha.. it seems like whenever i feel sleepy i'l start to feel high again.. lolx.. mayb its juz me.. getting self high.. but the problem probably isnt the fact that im still high at times ba.. its probably more of the fact that after the momentary high period, i'l drop to a low low mood n start thinking ultra negatively.. ha.. thereby becoming emo n feeling helplessly sad..
it seems like the more i enjoy n love the outside world, the more i detest n hate the army... this is like prison... i feel.. so.. .........