Wednesday, January 14, 2009
start counting from todae n i'l haf 100 days to ORD!!! haa.. n since todae's about over.. its 99 days now.. finally 2 digits.. but still so far... sighs...
smoking isnt realli as addictive as i tot it wld b.. or mayb different cigarettes haf different levels of addictiveness... i dunno.. but i feel that smoking is realli like eating sweets... eating one sweet is not enuff.. so theres always the want to get another one... but after i stop.. i dun realli haf any crave for wanting another any time after not smoking.. plus the fact that i noe its not healthy, i stop myself from taking too many at once.. ha.. so conclusion? smoking is not addictive... at least i dun feel it that way.. haa... BUT its still quite fun.. lolx.. takes my mind off things...
i hope good fortune is with me for the next few months or so.. i will b needing it.. haha.. hope i can realli haf 万事如意... haix...
Friday, January 09, 2009
i was wondering wat i forgot to mention... regarding Amane Misa... mayb if she did not appear at all.. if Rem did not come down to the Human World.. then the battle between L and Light may haf been more personal or even more interesting... hah..
alrite! finally finished reading the 12 deathnotes todae!! hahah.. as a loyal subject of kira.. i haf to say that i'm ok wif the ending.. since i've known thru out that kira will not win in the end coz of reasons like politcally incorrect n stuff like that.. i've always wondered how the comic ended.. coz i noe its different from the movie.. although i din watch the movie oso la.. hah..
but i can sum up very simply as to why did yagami light fail in the end... simply put.. its coz of the pple around him.. haha.. the pple that he cld make use of... firstly we c amane misa.. shes a girl with a brain size of mayb a bottle cap? haha.. as such, shes ez to manipulate of coz... but the worth of manipulating her wld decrease alot since she wld realli juz b a pair of hands.. of coz sometimes juz having an additional pair of hands is more useful than having someone who bothers to think about wat they are doing la.. ha..
den the next guy was chosen by Light himself.. Teru Mikami... hes one with enuff mental capability to act on his own when Kira cld not pass on instructions.. he cld briefly understand the general flow of Kira's tots n executed some actions on his own which pleased Light in a certain way... although it was purely accidental that Kiyomi Takada was chosen as Kira's spokesperson, the most obvious correct action was to eliminate the previous spokesperson.. hah..
However.. he doesn't seem to b that smart anymore after linking up wif Kira himself.. this can b seen from the fact that he din even realise who was following him around in the final days b4 the showdown.. if he had even been capable of identifying who was following him.. regardless of whether he knew onli his presence or if he knew exactly who he was.. then he wld haf been able to retrieve the real death note from the bank n took it home instead of leaving it back there again.. he wld haf done that if he knew that he was being followed.. but apparently he was juz another numbnuts.. hah..
Finally, Kiyomi Takada... although shes a kira supporter.. shes too feeble in terms of her mental strength.. if she was anywhere stronger.. she wld haf been able to accept killing pple calmly... although she did execute the criminals for a few wks.. or at least thats wat i understood la.. ha.. but yet she cldnt take it when she killed Mello.. if she cld relate that fact to Light calmly.. i think she wldnt haf needed to b sacrificed.. although of coz.. it was nearing the end n Light probably wld haf disposed of her all the same.. but i tot leaving as many pple to manipulate alive wld haf been a better plan.. i guess Light was juz too confident in winning that he din realli bother about safety plans anymore...
I mentioned b4 that if i had a death note in the world where Kira alreadi exists.. if Light alreadi exists.. then i wld want to b able to help him as much as i cld... haha.. n then i said that I wld probably b killed by Kira bcoz I wld b able to c Light's name n that i wasnt trustworthy enuff to b kept alive.. ha.. after all if it all ended.. I wld b the onli threat left to him..
that was b4 i read the later portions of death note.. n coincidentally, that role that i talked about was actually similar to the role of Teru Mikami.. haha.. n Light mentioned in the comic that he wld keep Mikami alive after killing Near... so I guess I wldnt die if i helped him this way.. hah.. but yet Mikami's faith of Light being god crumbled to pieces at the end... Im forced to think that Near realli did use the death note to manipulate Mikami into madness b4 dying.. coz from wat i see.. if I was in his shoes.. I wldnt doubt Light even if he was shot n lay there bleeding.. I wld still listen to him regardless.. of coz I probably wun b able to finish writing Nate River for him with my hands tied together la.. ha.. I'd probably get shot too if i tried... but i seriously wun hurl abuse at Light juz coz his plan wasnt coming together...
So I've nv wanted to b Light.. I'd rather b someone helping Light... but if I was in Light's shoes, at the end of it all.. I wld haf instructed Mikami to bring a false death note to the warehouse... to write down everyone's name in the fake note except for Light... then I wld accuse Near that he used a fake note n someone to make it look like the death note was meant to kill evryone except Kira but actually the note is fake... then under abit of interrogation wif Mikami to reveal that he indeed was hired by Near.. as long as there's no evidence to prove Light is Kira.. n wif Near being reversely accused, the Japanese team wld probably b suspecting Near a little more than b4.. n since Mikami in fact wrote Near's real name, I wld b able to dispose of him any time after this event... as long as I m free to move.. even if im still being watched by the japanese team, as long as I took out Near.. the rest of them cld b taken out by juz about anyone who possesed the deathnote..
So simply put.. the basic point of meeting in the warehouse was to take out Near... even if there was a more direct plan... like wat Near wld haf predicted to happen.. that b4 he took off his mask, all of the pple there except him n Kira wld die, den Light cld haf juz taken a gun out n shoot Near... that wld b the most direct plan.. but i guess Light wld haf wanted to end Near by writing his name in the deathnote... after all.. this is a battle of pride... not realli anymore about finding the truth of the mass murderer... so i guess pride is still wat ruins a man.. hahahah...
Monday, January 05, 2009
lee hom's new song everything is quite nice.. ha.. i quite like most of the lyrics... heres some parts...
就算别人都说 我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃
Cause Youre My Everything
就一个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天
永远从此刻开始算起
多少烟火 坠落无痕迹
因为幸福 没有捷径 难免要绕道
不被看好越是要走到
Friday, January 02, 2009
it is strange but still true.. evry year there will come a time where im overwhelmed wif evilness.. n its happening again!
Thursday, January 01, 2009
heres the first post of the new year! haha.. haf been blogging consecutive days for a while now.. ha.. it doesnt realli reflect how much fun i've had in recent times but rather how much time i haf to spend blogging coz i got nothing else to do or want to do.. ha..
if i were to try summing up my 2008 experience.. i'd probably nid to recall certain unhappy events so i'd rather juz leave the summing up to the archives i've had over on the rite side of this page.. ha.. but i think i've come up wif the idea as to y i've been feeling so strange recently.. or shld i say after the chalet..
i've obviously been in NS for the past 1 year n a few months more, n during this time period, i've developed my own way of living by myself... to stick to myself without the need of another individual to always or frequently b there for me.. to b able to solve my own problems without the nid to ask for opinions, to ask for alternatives, to talk about many things.. mayb all this havent changed.. but the onli thing that's changed is probably the fact that pple HAF become available for this.. even if i choose not to discuss myself wif them, the fact remains that they've come closer to me such that i can c them in the distance n shld i ever nid to, i cld approach them..
but this availability has led to problems wif my thinking process.. i can no longer survive on my own.. when im sure that nobody's around, i can b certain that im alone.. that i haf to do evrything by myself.. so all i had to do was to make myself feel comfortable.. n i think i succeeded in that.. ha.. but being comfortable mite not mean that im happy..
being wif my frens at the chalet made me rather happy.. or mayb even too happy.. happiness drew me away from my comfort zone.. but yet this happiness cannot b sustained.. it expires almost too soon.. n im caught standing in a place where i feel neither comfortable nor happy..
of coz there mite b other reasons.. but this is wat i cld gather from evidence that i've been thinking thru recently.. ha.. reading death note oso sets my mind thinking in a hyper logical way.. n speaking of death note, i think the anime was better in terms of portraying Light's genius.. ha.. the comic makes him less than wat i rmb him to b..
so mayb im juz trying to get back into my comfort zone.. into my own brick house where i'l b safely tugged away by myself.. BUT.. i think i forgot my keys.. lolx.. mayb i will try the chimney.. haha..
on a side note.. assuming i alreadi noe who actually reads this blog, wat makes u think that watever i say is true? n if it were true, den wat wld b my intentions? i wonder if evrybody does things for a purpose.. haha.. mayb pple juz read for fun.. read n forget without the process of digesting n of coz without the process of thinking the answers to the 2 questions i juz proposed.. haha...