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Monday, February 16, 2009
i shall try to recall starting from friday.. i suppose theres nothing much to rmb about office hours events so starting from after work i guess..
i found myself to b willing to walk wif someone even if i cld juz take a bus..
i m not exactly gd at expressing myself..
i m very imposing on others in the sense that i feel that its ok to disturb others at their homes..
i m demanding on my frens..
i do eat food courts once in a while wif frens instead of always taking fast foods..
i usually stick to things or places that i've tried b4 to eat..
budget is important to me..
i tend to b earlier if i can rather than late..
i feel quite bad if ny fren accompanies me but ends up wasting more time than needed..
i still prefer to do things on the sly.. stealth is my pride..
i like to feel appreciated.. mayb alot more than others..
i m a fan of rtk..
im not very gd wif soccer electronic games..
i m forgetful..
i ignore pple when i feel tired n go to slp..
as i wake up to the morning sun the following day.. ha.. there was less things to discover until i reached home i guess.. but i guess there are still some things to mention..
12 flower bouquets actually weigh relatively enuff to tire my hands..
having 2x hotcakes meal isnt very fun..
i still dun like to talk about myself to my family.. mentally prepares lies to smoke them if they asked certain questions.. but always end up not needing to use them as they ask questions which i din expect n end up telling the truths.. but i guess i tell the truth coz the things asked are trivial n doesnt realli matter..
i dunno how to take care of flowers.. had to keep them at home til i went out in the evening.. put it in a tall cup as mom suggested..
i like to wear long sleeves..
i realized the things which i forgot to do..
i arrive an hour earlier than agreed upon to inspect the surroundings n to check on suitable locations.. ended up spending half an hour waiting for time to pass..
holding flowers, even on Vday, seems to make pple stare at me.. i was quite affected by pples eyes n put on a cap to hide my eyes..
mayb flowers on vday isnt that important...
i do a routine check on how long i wld nid to wait..
i learnt that eating without talking may or may not b a good habit..
choosing a quiet place to talk is a good idea.. but mayb somewhere wif seats wld b good..
i m forgetful n non focusing.. cant rmb or recall wat was said to me even from a minute ago..
i m lame.. it was quite a bad thing...
i m unromantic.. a bore even...
i haf no interest in buying things for myself..
i haf no 2nd tots to spend on pple whom i do care about..
loving someone is juz a feeling..
i will not love someone less after understanding more about her.. on the contrary, i m happy to learn more about the person that i love.. no matter whether it is good points or bad ones..
i m not able to comprehend positive or negative signals.. nor m i able to change tactics mid way.. i can onli start n end wif one strategy imbued within me b4 i can change..
i impose my will on others again.. not a gd sign..
i m onli able to give silly n stupid suggestions..
i haf very little knowledge on the world or how it progresses..
n then its sunday.. i had agreed to meet zhi hao at the jurong east gym...
gym is not for me.. zh said that guys usually go to the gym to work out seriously.. so they bring wif them a sense of anger.. so that they can outdo themselves? not very sure how to put it.. hah..
i m not weak physically.. but im definitely not strong either..
after gym effects isnt very nice..
zh is a gd lad.. LOL...
n i was asked to play bball in the evening that day at the gym as well..
after gym, hands require different ways of movement to conjure strength to even throw the ball at the board.. haha..
i realised that i always tot certain pple werent approachable, like they arent realli frenly.. but mayb it is juz me who isnt frenly... who doesnt talk to other pple... it was quite strange to discover that fact but it may realli b true,,
peng swee is good basketball player.. ha.. unlike me, whos role is still to stand around n b clueless as to wat to do...
n finally, i heard some stories regarding the childhood lives of my elder brother, sister, n myself from my mom.. it was quite interesting.. n some things that i may haf rmbed differently, or even nv rmbed at all...
i guess not evrything i discovered was about myself.. n mayb somethings are juz relative.. but without competition or even juz comparison.. i suppose then i wld not b able to grow..