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Saturday, March 14, 2009
it doesnt really feel that long since i last blogged though... 13 days... but i guess time flew past a little bit faster than usual in the past 13 days ba.. sadly due to the fact that i had a little rare mc spell for the extraction of my wisdom tooth of coz.. which even more sadly, has alreadi ended yesterday...
been thru a few things these past week i guess.. one being wisdom tooth, another being lilian's birthday.. i vaguely remember one other thing i shld note but i dunno wat it is at the moment.. ha..
nothing much about my wisdom tooth except that i was blindfolded during the 'operation'.. hah.. not exactly covering my eyes wif a cloth but my face above my mouth was indeed wrapped up n i cldnt c anything at all.. i believe no one else has this since no one told me about it.. so this is something i tot i shld note.. ha..
n den its lilian's birthday celebrations, which was yesterday.. 5 days in advance.. i guess i was a bit disappointed that my saints t shirt wasnt valued to b within the theme.. haha.. but oh wells.. at least there were real sporting pple.. so sorry that we disappointed u at the start lilian.. ha.. its those sporting pple's fault for coming late... hah... i can understand it wld haf been quite a lowering spirit to c the first few grps of pple to b not 'appropriately dressed' hah..
but i guess it was all goin well in the end ba.. ha.. at least it was something new for me.. ha.. nv saw those wings in real life b4.. onli saw them on tv even if it was a live programme somewhere in singapore.. ha..
i wonder if i shld celebrate my birthday though.. i muz still admit that it wasnt realli a positive motivation to me to do my own after attending hers.. ha...
anyway i seem to haf started feeling detached from my life again.. ha... it seems like im missing something.. some link wif my frens.. i've quit msn for now since my less than useless com cant take the pop ups when pple come online.. so at least i nid to use facebook without the nid to live thru 5 minutes of hang time after each click..
i manage my finances based on being a single entity.. i think if i had a girlfren, my entire formula will crumble to bits.. so although i dunno whether i shld b happy that i've always failed at attracting positive feelings, it probably is something that i dun nid to fret about..
basically i've always thought that being single was alot freer.. lolx.. as far as im concerned, its much easier to move about when ur by urself.. but it was due to many external reasons that made me feel that life is about family.. or at least MY life will haf to b about creating my own family.. mayb all i haf to do is admit that i cannot fulfil that requirement.... juz like how i cant fulfil alot of other things that is required of me.. ha..
1 month 10 days more.... even if after i ORD, i start saying that after ORD the feeling of excitement will b gone.. I DUN MIND... SO LONG AS IM NO LONGER IN THIS STINKING SORRY EXCUSE OF A MILITARY ORGANISATION, I'l still b happy saying that as a CIVILIAN... i dun express much when other pple talk about life after NS of coz.. but i guess i still feel pissed when they treat it like something i shldnt look forward to..